Thursday, 24 August 2017

Mind block ... gone?

For way too long this year I've had a mindblock. There have been a majority ... a plethora... a HUGE amount of reasons for this.

Finally... I'm pulling myself up and out of it.


So... to get back to where I was but maybe also not where I was but my next step further on from that....

I keep thinking about the quote from #LukeCage last night: "Sometimes backwards. Move Forwards. Always."

In a lot of things we do at kura I feel like we are moving backwards. Then we have a giant leap forwards. People get scared or revert back to old ways and then we go backwards again.

It's a lot like that quote that Pop's would say. Just need to keep pushing forward.

I talked to one of my students last night who talked about how much better she feels with her mental health and in particular her writing. Have been watching her progress this year and am happy to see her more happy in her own skin finally. But so good to see her writing passion come back.

It has taken me a long time too to pick this blog back up again. Not for lack of trying. I have a huge list of topics in my bullet journal. I just didn't know how to start writing again.

It's more or less about the need to be appreciated and letting stuff I've held onto for a long time, go.

After my mirimiri last week, I feel so much bettee but know I need to have it done again soon. Still little niggles in my back and it brought up so much stuff that I need to keep getting it sorted. Wairua, hinengaro and tinana. All connected.

I'm behind in my reo Māori class too which is frustrsting. I need to push on with this also.

I'm behind in my marking too. I am finally in a good place to get everything sorted. Sometimes backwards. Move Forwards. Always.

Ma te wa whanau ❤

The Power of Now - Reflections on Eckhart Tolle's Novel

Nau mai haere mai!

So... last weekend a colleague suggested I read a novel called 'The Power of Now' by Eckhart Tolle.

For the longest time, my thoughts have always been on the ... what next? Rather than acknowledging and enjoying the NOW. For me, the now was always just a step towards the next and I never really enjoyed each moment.

I'm taking a bit more time to appreciate things lately. The random side liner questions, making more time to check in on students, (just remembered that I didn't check in on one kid today who looked really uncomfortable sitting next to another student... but then seemed to lighten up once we did film analysis...must check in tomorrow), and the recognition of the small things people say or mention to me to help push me in the right direction.

I've always been a believer in predestination. Not something that has been chosen for us by a faceless being... but a path that we chose for ourselves. Here we have to make choices to find a way to achieve our goals and hopes and dreams.

I hope that I can continue to find this peace in my mind. Where my mind isn't cluttered up with all these thoughts. Where I can actually breathe calmly without worrying about the next thing.

What's most important though is ensuring that I remember the importance of now. That I can ultimately change my life by being aware of the moments in front of me. Being aware, understanding and taking positive action to create a better, more positive life.

No way near finished reading this book yet... but already it's making an impact.